Pardon me but GOOD THE FUCK RIDDANCE. And I mean that with all due respect. This year has been, to put matter of factly - some BULLSHIT. I am not a cry baby by any means - i may complain a lot but it is rare that you will see tears come down my face. but this year- ive cried more then i have ever in my entire life. I cant wait to put this year and everything that transpired in it behind me.
It wasnt all bad - i cant forget some of the good that happpened. I graduated college - a 4 1/2 year journey. Looking back, school life was the good life because the "real world" is not fun - at all. would i go back? absolutely not. well maybe. but id go back on a day where all classes were cancelled and me and marissa were sitting in the middle of the Sac talking about what everyone was wearing haha. I bought my first car! My baby, oh how i love the Bentley (lol, the white stallion, and every other name i have called it since i got it. its such a great accomplishment to buy your first car, with it in YOUR name and no one cosigning for you. And lastly, i fell in love with the most beautiful man God has ever created. I truly believe that he was made just for me and now that i have him, im never letting go. He makes me laugh when i wanna cry, he deals with my mood swings and me being a brat - which is almost every day, and he doesnt judge me - or anyone else for that matter. he is so understanding and his heart is just so beautiful. he has become my best friend and i love him with all my heart ♥
While i sit here and think about everything this year was, I must say that i have learned a great deal and i have grown up - A LOT. ive learned that change isnt always a bad thing and then as one door closes, another one is surely opening. Ive learned that no matter what - family is EVERYTHING and they will stand by you even at your ugliest. ive learned that forgiveness is the way of life and to hold grudges takes too much time and ruins your mind and spirit. ive learned that love is possible and just because it wasnt in situations around me, i am not like them and if i want it - i will have to work for it. ive grown respect for people i didnt have it for and i have let go of people who were in my life to take me down.
So maybe it wasnt that bad after all , because with every growing pain i learned a much valuable lesson. it doesnt make me change my mind though - that im happy to see this year go. i look forward to a new year, a new beginning with my amazing family, my incredible friends, my loving boyfriend, and the new goals that i have set in place for myself.
I'll be back in 2010 ! But now, some of my favorite pictures of this year:
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