so i been spedning some time with Mia lately, she came last week to do my hair and again last night to do my moms and both nights we've gotten into deep convo about our personal lives and just about life in general ... and while trying to help her come to terms of her own life, ive made some important realizations about my own. mia and i go back a lonnng time and we've gone through a lot of ups and downs but throughout it all, we've always over come whatever issues we have had. i respect her honesty - i respect any one who can be honest with their good friends despite being afraid of what they will say if they dont like what they hear. i may have not always liked what she said - but she's always been real. which is one of the main reasons why our friendhship still stands.
we all struggle. not in the same ways. but every one struggles. no one is perfect and no one knows exactly where they are going to end up. we all work jobs, and most of us hate what we do, but we do it because we have to. we live in a world where we have come to known Money - and not so that we can survive, but so that we can be happy. money is the driving force behind EVERY thing. job, education, relationships, FRIENDSHIPS, everything. and that is truly sad and disappointing.
but thats a different subject for a different day. and without getting too much into the details of our convos i would just like to say:
nothing in life is worth doing - unless you are HAPPY. and not happy with your job, with your family, or your friends ... being happy in YOUR skin. only YOU knows what makes you truely happy. a lot of people worry too much about the happiness of OTHERS before themselves and then they get wrapped up in the expectations that other people have of you which will leave u feeling miserable and empty.
no job in this world is worth my happiness. i am lucky enough to wake up every day and do what i want to do. although a lot of days its not easy but every job has bullshit and problems - i still love it. it makes me happy.
no person in this world could take away my happiness.
no amount of money can make me any happy. it could make me more COMFORTABLE but not happy.
i just wish people would stop with life's craziness and really think about what makes them the most happy. i have a family that supports any and everythhing i do and if i should ever fall they are ALWAYS there to pick me right back up. i have a best friend who i call my sister because blood could not make as any closer. i have friends that have proven how geniuine and real they are. i have a job in an industry that i have always dreamed to be in. and i have me - a confident, go getting, determined person who puts her values before material things and wont change that.
so i suggest that in the midst of all your complaining and miserable-ness - stop and think about the things that matter to you the most. id rather wake up every day loving the life i live ...then wake up every day and hate going to work, have nothing to look forward to, and have no one but myself.
ps. i love u mia .. and of course .. my twin <3
