to my attention that i have been very up and down lately. ive noticed it within myself but i didnt know it was that obvious to other people. me and T T have become rather close and i talk to him about everything so when he says that ive been up and down, thats pretty bad. and i hate being moody - i find it to be a completely annoying trait and i try not to be like that.
im just wondering at what age do you get patience ? like im 22 years old, and i still have no patience. ive been trying , but trying aint working and im begining to think that ill never get any. its bad because i get annoyed veryyy quickly, and T T says its because i have a low tolerance for bullshit, which may very well be the case. but its bad . like i feel like im mean to every one just because when people do dumb shit it makes me mad ... like why ask dumb questions or questions that you already know the answer to ? and then people get mad when i have a amart ass remarks to them but if people thought before they spoke it would be different ...
i dont know. part of it is because im stressed . i still need another job , but im so unmotivated to do so because i like where i am now and i know the minute i get another job its going to take away from the time i can work here and i dont want to do that. i know what its like working 3 jobs at one time and the one u want to be at most, you cant because your other 2 get in the way. im starting to dance with Rome again , i start that this saturday so that will be some extra money .but still.
ahhhhhhh i just want to scream sometimes. and usually im not a baby when it comes to emotions . i more of a sarcastic and smart mouthed person before i get emotional but for real . its like something has got to give soon . at least i pray it does ...